Monday, December 16, 2013

which you never known....!!!

I was curious about you in all my dreams….
The thing which I always forget to tell you was nothing but love…
At last you came to say me “good bye”,
In the corridor of our college…
And you disclosed your sweet secret-
Which you hide from me till now…
It was about your sweet hearts glittering eyes…
But you didn’t see tears glittering in my eyes….
When I walked away with a fake smile by hiding my tears..
You were still dreaming about your lovers glittering eyes..
And now…I am changing myself as a poem about you…
Which you have never known….


Monday, November 18, 2013

                              നീ അറിയാതെ പോയത്


ഒരായിരം നിനവുകളിൽ നിന്നെ  ഞാൻ കൊതിച്ചിരുന്നു .
പറയാൻ മറന്നതെന്തോ അതു പ്രണയമായരുന്നോ ??
ഒടുവിൽ ഒരു യത്രമൊഴിയുമയ് നീയാ കലാലയത്തിൻ -
വാരാന്തയിൽ വന്നു നിന്നു ......
ഇതുവരേ പറയാത്ത രഹസ്യത്തിൻ ചാരുതയെന്നപോലെ ,
നീ നിൻ പ്രിയസഖി തൻ മിഴിത്തിളക്കം വർണിച്ച നേരം -
എന്നുടെ മിഴിനീരിൻ തിളക്കം നീ കണ്ടീല ...
പുഞ്ചിരിയിൽ വേദന ഒതുക്കി ഞാൻ നടന്നു ...
നീ സ്വപ്നം കാണുകയായിരുന്നു ....
നിന്നാത്മസഖിതൻ മിഴിത്തിളക്കം ....
ഇന്നിതാ നിന്നോർമയിൽ നിയറിയാതെ പോയ ,
ഒരു കവിതയായ് വീണ്ടും ഞാൻ മാറുന്നു .

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

My friends......

As everyone I was also excited to enter to a professional life. From Nursery to school, school to college ,from college to WIPRO….. My training location was in Bangalore. I have heard about the place as very dense populated place with huge traffic…
September 3 was my reporting date. There were a large number of people for whom their reporting date is also the same. I got three friends, Shilpa, Sharanya and Sajitha. After Certificate verification we return to our home town.
On September 10 we reached EC.I liked Electronic City very much. I felt proud to be a part of WIPRO. But my three friends were in Unix C and me alone in Unix Apps. We were 25 altogether in our Unix Apps batch. For the first time I got friends from other states. I got a friend Dhaya Mol as friend. As both of us were from Madivala, we used to come together.
The first section of our training was English Fluency. The most tough thing I came across was my low voice. Trainee always used to correct me, but I couldn’t. Since that period itself our batch formed a good friendship circle. We went to Iskon Temple. As I am a believer of lord Krishna, it was my dream to go to Iskon. After that we went to Orion Mall. I was seeing such a big mall for the first time.
My training period was the days I enjoyed just like anything. We six,Jobin,Jibu,Jithesh,Jithin,Dhaya and me became very close. Actually they were like my five fingers of my hand. Without them I was nothing. For every situation I asked their Opinion.
Pinnacle was our second Section. But since we had a combination class with the other batch, we couldn’t enjoy a lot. But anywhere with my friends, I feel happy.
Next Section was FRP. We studied basics of C there. But for the exam, only Jithin had passed from our group. But we all were happy due to some secrets of friendship……



The day when we got first salary is unforgettable. We were really proud. We discussed how to spend it worthfully.We planned to move to shivaji market and purchased clothes. Jithesh always had a tricky conversation with shopkeepers and bought things for cheap price.
After FRP Exam, we had TRP 1.We had Basics  of Unix to study.Jibu once told me, “Hridya, due to your childish  behavior I felt you as my little sister.” I was very happy hearing that. Beyond friendship I got a brother here. A caring hand……….,I sat beside him for TRP.We fought each other for simple reasons .Such as for the system, for the chair, for keyboard for typing….I enjoyed it a lot. How much big we are no matter we are always small for those who care us……..:)
Jobin was a special character. All will like his talking style. For most of the members in my class he was their best friend. It is really hard to get angry on him because within that time he will make us laugh. In every words there will something to make us laugh. So always what happens is he have to remind me that I was angry on the previous day and don’t talk to him.:)
Jithesh is the most sincere person I have ever find in my life. He is very shot tempered. He used to get angry even for my small mistakes.I used to correct it before he shout next time .Hence I always think twice before talking to him.:)
Jithin was a shy guy. But we always had a lot to laugh in his naughtiness. He used to become tense fast. He is very brilliant too.
Dhaya mol was very talkative. As I didn’t have much to talk. She always tell many things. Hence I didn’t feel bored.
On the day when group divided for RLL,I was crying, because within that time, Jibu became my best friend and a careful brother. Even though he was in another group, we used to sit near. Trainee always scold us “What is there to talk always?”. Our respective group partners also get irritated. On the last day of training Jibu told,”I am glad to get a sister from here…..Hridya ,she is very cute and childish”. In my speech I told,”True friends are the gift of God. These five are like my five fingers in my hand. Without them I am nothing.”
It was hard for me to believe after training days we all will get shattered,

December 17 th was the end date of our training. WE had prize distribution function. I was crying not because I was not the winner,but because of losing my dear friends. I have previously booked ticket to my home town that day. But I cancelled that. I decided to move when my friends are moving. Since I can’t stay at least one day without them.
Hence we all moved to our home town on December 24 th. I went to home town with Akhila, my college friend. When we were in bus ,Jithesh called me and told he got a mail saying his project is in Chennai……
“Chennai……??”
“one of my finger have broken” , I cried and told Akhila.
Jobin and Jithin told they also got project in Chennai. I called Jibu and asked to look his . After checking he called me and told he has also got project in Chennai. But my Project was in Bangalore itself.  Dhaya’s project was in Kochi.  Without seeing who all care, I cried all along in Bus. And for all of us joining date was January 2 nd,the day before we planned to return.
Before I return from my hometown Jithin ,Jithesh and Jobin left to Chennai. Jibu ask for extending the joining date to February 2nd. But for my project there was no requirement. Every place we roamed together, me and Jibu sat silently. After one month Jibu also went to Chennai.
For me a long four month free pool…..;( Free pool is heaven when you are with your friends, but worse than hell when you are alone. I don’t know how I killed the days. From library to Dormitory…Dormitory to library…..alone…;(
Every places in Electronic City remind me those beautiful days which we celebrated  cracking jokes, simple fighting’s, going for  lunch together….I missed all that colorful days….I didn’t felt to talk to anyone. I put myself behind everything. Only relief was we used to chat and call always.. Even though they were busy they find time to chat with me. I couldn’t make friends till and same their case also.
Now I am eagerly waiting to write the fourth part of “My WIPRO Training” when we all are together again. But don’t know when……….I am even ready to give the rest of my life to God, if he gives those three months training back….;(;(


Last sleep.......

Everyone will have different reasons to like rain. Each rain will have some story to tell us. Sometimes I feel  , “why god didn’t gave color to rain drops as my tears?” . Perhaps God may forget both…..,
I have a painful memory regarding rain. I had a cousin brother, his name was Arun. I called him Vavi ettan. We both had an age difference of five years. Since he didn’t have own sister, I was his little sister. We always play together, study together, fight together.  We both like to enjoy rain.
He likes food very much hence he always feels hungry and he always suffer from stomach ache. He didn’t like to take medicine. Whenever his mother gave him medicine, he used to throw it without seeing her.
I used to wake up late always. He wake up first and pour water in my ears to make me wake. Once I got angry and told, “One day I will definitely pour water in your ears”.
He replied, “Only if it is my last sleep………”.
I still remember after these thirteen years also….It was an evening of April 12,  I fought with him for some simple reasons. He called me, ”Hridya ,come…it is raining…see how nice it is…..” But without telling a single word, I close the door and slept .But for the first time he got angry on me and he went to his house. I was shocked. Whenever we had any fight, he used to come with chocolates. Sometimes I simply made fight to get those chocolates. I called him several times. But he didn’t give any reply. But I was sure on April 14 he will come, since it is vishu.
April 14 morning, I was sleeping…I felt someone is pulling my legs. He usually does like this. I slept as I am sleeping. But I heard a sudden cry. I ran to kitchen, my mother was crying. I didn’t understand anything. We went to his home. There I saw him sleeping covered with a white cloth. I remembered his words,”…..only if it is my last sleep”.
last sleep………”
I understood, he is no more. The stomach ache he was suffering from was a swell in pancreas gland and since he didn’t take medicine properly, it affected his liver also. I didn’t get him in phone was because he was in hospital that time.no one told me this also.
He was taken finally to the place where he used to throw medicines…..
I slept in his room. Even I couldn’t cry. I saw his books, color pencils, toys everything waiting for him , without knowing he won’t come again.
Someone told, “ Arun’s eyes were open still…..he had some wish when he died”
I didn’t tell anyone, that wish was to enjoy rain with his little sister.
That time also rain was there outside, silently telling his last wish to me……..